sian , i got no fucking mood to maple now. reason = my mother . fucked up ok ! wa lao eh . i nvr even blame her for waking me up at 7 plus in the morning when i can sleep until 9 plus luh! sucker. waking me up early in the morning , asking me if i want to go to work with my cousin (15 years old ) at his aunt's shop . whatthefuck ? 1 hour , $10 . working from 12 to 6 . -.- whatever , denied it , due to some personal problems . it's not that i dont want go work luh , who doesn't want to work with such a good pay , 1 hour 10 dollars ? of course i want ! but i denied it because got some personal thing mah . then she go ask brother ,brother denied it also , cos he today got oral and he got basketball trainings on tuesday and thursday . then she returned to her room , then after around 1 hour , she came out , then start scolding and saying us . -.- WHATTHEFUCK is wrong with her ?! it's not that we don't want to work luh , ccb , is because we got our own things going on , and of course we got reason for deneying it rights?! whatthefuck luh , down there say what got money don't want earn , oh , whatthefuck , i' only 12 , 12 years old ok ! my birthday haven even over , and you wants a 12 years old to go and work ? whatthehell manz ! it's not whatever broken family or need money so urgently , it's not even that we don't have things to eat and so on ? you want me to work , next time i go work , my attitude and all change towards you , you dont down there scold and cry luh ! little little thing only, say until like so big , never go will die likkdat , since you wanted me to go so much , why bother to ask me ? just agree straight away and pull me out from my bed everyday , drag me to go and work luh , issn't that whatyouwant ? since you wanted the answer to be agree , why not just agree with aunt and then tell me after that ? then i cann't change the fact anymore , isn't it ? that time brother they'll nvr go work , as if you got go and scold him or whatsoever ? it's unlike you, you've changed. i don't know since when , everything infront of you is more important than your children , their feelings .. mama , you've changed. you've changed to not care about my feelings anymore ... i feel that i'm just an extra in your life ... i wish i could disappear , even for one day ... D: